21.9.05
officially outcasted
wonderful..ive been officially outcasted..by my own sister..had a bad dream last nite..dreamt tat my own sis (nt gonna say which 1)..is going away..n not coming back..telling me..da last to know..on da very day of da departure..when i saw her packing her stuff n buying air tickets via phone..=~( n best ting is..i dunno y i dreamt it was happening at our old hse..haiz..feel so sad..
been da 2nd wk since i took money from dad..EVEN SINCE I GOT MY ONE WHOLE MONTH SALARY..!! jus in case some ppl doesnt know..sad tat nw no1 tries to understand me nowadays..nt even my own kin..=~( i can feel tat SHE doesnt wans to talk to me..kicking me aside..ever since i 1]refuse to help sis to do da business ting..(nt tat i dun wan to help..jus tat i dun wish to be involve in business stuff as i know i haf a chance to screw up..u wan me go up mountain go down sea..die on ur behalf i dun mind..can help in watever but tat...) 2] after listening to dad's complain..nt tat im denying all tat..but haf u listen to my side of story..? i tried nt to see doc..save money..go work while im sick..but i cant take it..my body cant take it..n im really at home resting..plus u know i dun really shop..i hardly buy stuff..except for da usual t-shirts tat i aim for very long...
really feeling down..been losing slp lately..hafing being treated like tat..i jus wan da gd old times back..da coffees..da going out..they hardly haf time also..or rather they onli bother tat whether im earning to feed myself..am i doing da rite tings..go ahead..complain abt me all u wan..like u all usually do...where r u gals when i needed u..? getting disappointed wif wat i wan..discouragement is all i got..i wan to study..i wan go sign on..but they dun haf da vacancy nw..wat u expect me to do but wait..? i am still working..i am trying my best if can avoid ncc activties..but do u all realise it..? i do need ur support too..but guess u all r jus bz shaping ur life..jus take care..dun over worked urself...health is equally imptly in life..
ciaoz...
Posted by dotsux at 9/21/2005 12:44:00 am
16.9.05
work work work $ $ $
$$$..haiz..though i dun really care..but still its a need more than a want..n da need is raising..or well..jus haf to try to more days n more hours tis month than..missed a wk of work due to spec coz 3 somemore..(still i got ungrateful brats tat does not know hw to appreciate our help...pls get urself together n look at da whole picture..!! hello..!!?? any1 at home...=/ )more n more ppl r leaving in my company..!! (btw..im refering to those who came in same time as me..) 1st its mark..irwan..wee siong..jas..nw even SHER..!! omg..all my slack party going to be dismissed le..arghz..haha..but..oh well..they left for a gd reason..sch start n for da gals..they got a gd job wif a not bad pay..so all da best peps..!! gd luck..!
here r da pics tat mark+wee siong took on his last day..haha..
1st to go..mark..! haha...~ =P nice chap..very crappy..got a leg wif my sup..hmz..=/ haha..jus kidding...=P
our dear team leader (TL)..!! haha~ no lar..jus his rep..=D
last day of our TL...wee siong..da whole of TTA 13 (my team)..
our own personnel pantry..da pride n glory of TTA 13..! haha..always got meow meow come steal our food de...hmz..=/ n tks to our TL..who replanishes it wif 4 jumbo cans of pringles..which by nw already gone..haha..=P like last than 4 days..? haha~
Posted by dotsux at 9/16/2005 11:14:00 pm
5.9.05
ncc day dnr...
da 3 awardees from east of da nite...2nd last dish..fried rice...oh well..wat can u expect from occ..but food was better than last yr's of coz..hehe..tks to small cat also..help me peel da prawns..haha...=P
tks to all who have clapped for me..hehe..despite da fact tat i almost tripped when i was abt to receive da first award of da day..was really touch when i saw da east clts n cadets standing up n clapping n cheering for each n every of da east clts n of coz mdm devi..
cheers to east family..n may our traddtion continues forever and da family stay strong n united forever...love u guys lots...
i tink we were da only district tat took district photos tat day..haha..lots of chaos n afford was taken to take tis pic..haha..
had lots of fun on tat day..with our dress code of coz..tink i was best dressed as compared to da previous yrs..haha..tks baby for all ya help..buying da tie n stuff like tat..love u lots..n da rest of da gang too..for da ideas of escorts etc..haha..will rem tis day to da end of my life..forever...
last but nt least..tks dear for coming to pick me up on after da ting..for buying lunch over to my hse on da day as u scare tat i wont be able to make it back in time if we were to go out for lunch..really appreciate wat u have done for me so far..despite da fact tat we live so far away..u always make da pt to send me home..ensuring im home safely..love u lots lots..